I don't know what my title is suppose to mean.
Try pronouncing it maybe.


Anyways,
watched Shokojo Seira against my greater judgement just now.
It's still airing, that's why.
But it's a good way to tame my habit so that I get SOME housechores done, neh?

As usual, like most JDramas,
it has loopholes and exaggerated fictional scenes..
but it's cute nonetheless.



Also, I wrote on my notebook some links I want to check out or dont want to forget.
But anyways, how long has it been?
1 week? 2 weeks?
Even so, my handwriting has gotten ugly !!

It's like.. it's like.. a boy's!
Haha. Sorry to be so stereotype.


Also, I love Shida Mirai.
I'm sure there's only one person in the world who knows my passion.
That's Syafikah, btw.
Anywhos, if given a choice, I'd really like to pursue the acting career.
However, I have yet to die and go to heaven.
Means that I am still on Earth.

I'm beating around the bush, aren't I? o(x.x)o

Shida Mirai is really, really something.
Her acting always makes me want to continue watching the drama.

As long as her role is not something like Nishikido Ryo's in Last Friends.
Hnn~! DV is a BIG no-no.
Even if it's Nishikido Ryo.
Man, that guy acts in shows that makes me tear.
[ 1 litre of tears, Niini no koto wa wasurenaide, Last Friends (in a " No! Don't do it! " manner) ]

But we're at the topic of Shida Mirai here.
Who's the same age as Yamada Ryosuke.
And birthdate one day after him.
Hahaha. It's a cool thing.

The YamaShi pair that acted together for Tantei Gakuen Q.



Okay, I'm rambling.

Anyways, after so long,
piccu~!

Heehee.


Anyways,
I just got off the phone with Zul.
Yes, PCCGgang.

The Zulhilmi.

Hahahah.


Who is whining a lot.
LOL o(^.^)o



Also, I realise something about me.
I'm not good with speaking.

Unless it's oral presentations or thereof.

But even with my friends,
I'll be very self-conscious.
I always worry if they'll get what I mean.
And I absolutely HATE silence moments.

I'll feel awkward.
To add on to my anxiety, I'll wonder if my friends feel awkward.

And then I'll think that they dont want to talk to me anymore
'cause they think I'm a very boring person for always keeping quiet.
When in truth, I'm just not a conversation starter.


I think that is partly because I don't really care about much.
Like I have issues with everything
but unlike most, I keep those issues I have with myself.
Therefore, I dont have any conversation topics.

Hmm..

SURPRISINGLY,
This idiot is bored at home.
Sheesh.


I hate, hate, hate viikii !!
It's spoiling my day!

And I have an eye appointment tomorrow.

I hate going to the optician.
Well, in this case, eye clinic.
But I hate it nonetheless.
All it does is give me bad news and use up my mother's money.


Let me tell you.
Long eyelashes has its cons.
More cons than it does pros.

So why do people want them?
Vanity. Geez.


Oh and I also HATE the instrument used to data eye pressure.
Poof. Hnn~!
You wont know what I'm talking about unless you've been there.


Anywho, I'm overdosing on dramas !!
Yatta !!

And I cant wait for 2010 dramas already.
When I'm not done with 2009 ones yet. Haha !
Sho X Maki ... Hmm!


I'm also thinking of changing my blogskins.
But..

" probably not. "

Always comes into my mind.



O Levels is over and after a long time,
I finally feel this kind of boredom.

The kind where I dont feel worried about anything.
The kind where there's no major exam to worry about.

Woah! That's a huge load off my.. chest?
Shoulders! I prefer shoulders!
Although my mind keeps saying 'soldiers' instead.
Wonders. Haha.


Also, I feel like splurging.
Although, I'm not very rich to begin with.



Ooh!!
My stuff in my room is clean.
Uhn, my stuff. Heehee.

Maybe I should help that JCkid and that FINALyear sisters of mine.


But I'd rather run on the treadmill all day long first.
Hahahaha.
So many plans, aye?

Have to jot down everything.
I feel so carefree that I'm forgetting my want-to-dos
now that there's not much have-to-dos left.


*** HUGE HUGE HUGE SMILE ***


On a final note,
another reason for this carefree feeling..
I've fully embraced singlehood.
Yeay! Getting over someone gives you so much bliss.
Bliss you've never felt.

Oh but, getting over is not forgetting.
Getting over is dealing with wishful thinking.
Remember that.
And treat everything as a wonderful memory.

Except if it involves death and murder and killing and everything wrong.
Hahahahhah. But we're not in that topic, you see?

Dear Narimah,

Uhn, like FINALLY~ !
Haha(:

xoxo

It used to be:

And then it was:

And now it is:


Oh wait.
Just three more papers before I can say the 'And now it is...' part.



Just for the record,
I'm in love with Glory of Family / Family's honor.
But there is no way I can watch it
except to wait for it to air.

And the one thing I'm horrible at
is being patient about my drama episodes.
( Psst. My whining's torturing my sisters! )

But I dislike viikii.
And the only way to watch that KDrama, eng subbed,
is through viikii.

Gah~!



Anyway, Aiba's 'My Girl' is really sweet.
It makes you want to see the relationship develop.
But that's near-last on my list because it's still airing.

Like I said, I'm very impatient about my drama episodes.



And I drama-deprived.
No, make it still-deprived-of-time-for-dramas.


Ooh. But I'm also slightly motivated to clean my room.
Like I said, time and time again to mum,
" After Os!! "


Anyways, I think guys should watch JDramas.
Oh, I don't mean be a fan(guy)
I mean get tips from JDramas.
The variety works too.

Those with little segments on how a guy should surprise a girl.


Maybe I should make it a dream to marry a scriptwriter.
Of Japanese romance dramas preferably.
Hahahahaha. Only if he's as romantic (and cute) as his work.

Big dreams, huh?

Gee, will post a proper dedication once exams are done.

With my sister and peter's birthday coming up soon,
now that's 4 presents. Hmm..

My sister says
" [Narimah], don't come out ah. "
And closes the door.
Hmm, curiousity.


Btw, Syafikah gave me an interesting article to read last night.
Oh and finally I know the difference between Jealousy and Envy.
Jealousy: Fear/Anxious etc. of losing something that you own.
Envy: The want to acquire or prevent others from acquiring something that you dont own.

Not that I was wondering much.




Today is slacking day. Tomorrow is studying day.
Hence, time for JDramas.
It helps get things out of my mind.
This feeling: I'm not running away if it isn't chasing me. It's called being ignorant.

I think that I should really, really..
Forget certain things,
Eradicate certain thoughts,
Throw away certain ideas,
Erase certain wants,
Annihilate certain hopes.

For it is all wishful thinking.
Right?

Prove me right and not otherwise, please.



For I should very much really focus.




Ah. It's the exam period and I'm not studying.
We'll just see how things turn out.

I seriously think I wont be disappointed with my exam marks.
Not saying they'll be high. Otherwise, in fact.
Afterall, I so hope to be rid of these wishful thinking.


I have this sudden fascination for astronomy.
It's temporary but, I still want to go to one of those big museums
Like in J a p a n or something
where they have huge telescopes that let you view outer space.

I think that will be really romantic.
But I'd like to go alone.
I'd like to watch a movie alone too.
Haha. Right now, I disagree that two heads are better than one.

Get the hint?


I suddenly want to be left alone.
Although I miss talking to someone.
And he's just a friend(:







P.S. I LOVE the starting for Galileo: The Movie (JMovie)..
Although as mentioned there, LOVE is the epitome of illogical.
Haha. *Agrees!!* [Therefore it is a waste of time.]


And this song! ♥

I'm tired.

Of confusion.
Of failing. Constantly.
Of having to put up an act.


I do care but you backed out.

To the person whom i said
" Your head ah! "
to this morning..

I shall not let you have the satisfactory of thinking
that you are one of the people i am envying. Haha.
In other words, I confess. You're right about what you said.


Now, now. There's no need to gloat.



Release of MT O'level results today for the rest of the Sec 4s.
Wasn't able to be there with them as they receive it.
Had to attend HMT class. o( -.-"')o

To those who got a B,
but you were aiming for an A..
be grateful.

To those who need to retake.
Just have a little bit of faith and keep praying.
You can always try harder.

To those who've achieved their targets or better,

CONGRATS!!

And here's something interesting someone said.

Me: Eh, how much you get?
XX: B4. *shaking head*
Me: Not bad what. I also get B4 last year.
XX: No good lah. 4 years I study only get B4 for what?
Me: I'm worse okay. Higher Mother Tongue summore.

Haha.



Had English Oral today also.
Easy topic, baybeh.
On climate change and helping others.
I was there asking for sympathy marks ah. Haha.

Picture and passage was on flooding.


Then waited for the rest at the back of the hall.
And since we couldn't have chem practical,
Ms Loke told Twenvin it'll be on Friday.
Then we all tricked Haoren saying that
we have to join Mrs Eng's class after oral.

Hahahahaha.


ChinWee lent me a book.
I'm scared I'll be too engrossed to do any other work.
Oh and he wanted me to read it
but at the same time, he was spoiling the story for me. -.-""

To him only:
It's a deal that if you get above B4 for English,
I'll blanja you.

My previous post number was Nemu-naechan's PSLE aggregate score. Haha.

Aah! PSLE!
If only O' Levels was something compared to it.


Today, I hate blog-hopping.
Today. Haha!
Well, it made me irritated.



But anyways, nothing can beat the thing that made me happy this week.
It had something to do with the twig I pointed to Nabilah
on the way to RP yesterday.

But a lot of scary stuff too.
Well, fine!
Just one.
But it's enough for a long time.

Stay healthy, Syafikah!



I am really, really in the anti social mood.
Leave me be?

Maybe I should change my template
to mark my s i x t e e n t h..



. . .



Then again, maybe not.


Thanks ya'all♥

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