This is bad! My current mental state is bad! I don't usually type out one irritating paragraph that just turns people off from reading but this sucks! And currently I can't be bothered. I don't know whose fault it is but it definitely felt like mine. Can I blame you? Technically, I can. I should blame you for not saying anything earlier. If you had, I would've done something about it. Even if it was a subtle complain. I would've cos even if I don't act like it, I take things to heart. No matter how subtle of a hint it is, even if you may not even mean it, I'm the type that if you say you don't like it even as a joke, I'll take it seriously. That's just me. I think I probably get insulted very easily. If you're not Syafikah, Asyraf or Faizah, anything negative you say even as a joke, I'll probably take it seriously and get insulted, even if I don't show it. Even if you're my mum or my dad or my sister or anyone who falls into the category of my supposedly close person. But you, you just shut up. You don't even give a little hint. So technically, I can blame you. But heck, you're supposed to be the innocent one who tolerated all these crap. So from a third person's perspective, I'm unreasonable and I don't appreaciate your effort at all, and I probably am the worst person on earth to actually want to place the blame on you. Fine, it's my fault. Fine, I'll do it on my own. I won't rely even a little bit more on you, I just won't. But I really despise the way I got to know that you're actually tolerating things. And I really despise the fact that this didn't stay merely between us. So, thanks. But this is exactly one of the reasons I don't want to have any social interaction whatsoever. It's freaking annoying. Everything is.